Armanz
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Hello everyone! 
With Neptune finishing its transit in Pisces and beginning its transit in Aries, it is (and will be for a loooooong time!) making a square to my Sun in Sagittarius and to my Moon in Capricorn, both conjunct in my 12th House.
So I need some advice, tips and other kinds of help, because I must admit this is not a transit I enjoy very much...
I mean, I spent a good part of my childhood and teenage years with Neptune transiting my Ascendant (not easy for building yourself up at that age), I survived Saturn’s return on the Descendant while Pluto was conjunct first my Mars, then my Sun and my Moon at the same time, all in the 12th House...
And actually, more or less every time it has been a matter of getting past conscious or unconscious fears, of gaining confidence in myself, in life, and well, what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, turning lead into gold, finally doing what we want, dream of, being who we really are, daring, etc.
But right now I’m going through something else with Neptune (worse than having it in the 1st): I don’t even know what I want anymore! I can’t decide on anything because it’s not just about facing fears — I’d first have to know what I actually want!!
I can’t stand my job anymore, I’m starting to let it go without having any idea what comes next, I’ve cut off several relationships (family, friends, partner), I want this and that but at the same time I’m not really convinced, and it depends on the day...
I admit it depresses me (well okay, Saturn is ALSO squaring both my luminaries right now) and I don’t see how I can handle this for another two and a half years...
So yes, I’ve seriously started meditation, pulling cards... the Pisces cliché, sure, but we all need to be able to make decisions in life, ones that won’t lead us to major disasters because we’ve built HUGE illusions about ourselves and what we can do!?
Sorry for playing the victim, but hey, that’s also one of the joys of Neptune
So if any kind souls could help me, I would be infinitely grateful...
With Neptune finishing its transit in Pisces and beginning its transit in Aries, it is (and will be for a loooooong time!) making a square to my Sun in Sagittarius and to my Moon in Capricorn, both conjunct in my 12th House.
So I need some advice, tips and other kinds of help, because I must admit this is not a transit I enjoy very much...
I mean, I spent a good part of my childhood and teenage years with Neptune transiting my Ascendant (not easy for building yourself up at that age), I survived Saturn’s return on the Descendant while Pluto was conjunct first my Mars, then my Sun and my Moon at the same time, all in the 12th House...
And actually, more or less every time it has been a matter of getting past conscious or unconscious fears, of gaining confidence in myself, in life, and well, what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, turning lead into gold, finally doing what we want, dream of, being who we really are, daring, etc.
But right now I’m going through something else with Neptune (worse than having it in the 1st): I don’t even know what I want anymore! I can’t decide on anything because it’s not just about facing fears — I’d first have to know what I actually want!!
I can’t stand my job anymore, I’m starting to let it go without having any idea what comes next, I’ve cut off several relationships (family, friends, partner), I want this and that but at the same time I’m not really convinced, and it depends on the day...
I admit it depresses me (well okay, Saturn is ALSO squaring both my luminaries right now) and I don’t see how I can handle this for another two and a half years...
So yes, I’ve seriously started meditation, pulling cards... the Pisces cliché, sure, but we all need to be able to make decisions in life, ones that won’t lead us to major disasters because we’ve built HUGE illusions about ourselves and what we can do!?
Sorry for playing the victim, but hey, that’s also one of the joys of Neptune
So if any kind souls could help me, I would be infinitely grateful...